Goodbye May, hello June!
Anybody else got a June dedicated to exams? Good luck!
Maybe even graduating? In which case congratulations! I’m happy for you, even though I wish I could join you.
In June I want to…
- Hand in my Bachelor’s thesis. (I did on June 1st) It was a weird feeling handing it in. Partly because it’s not over, I have to start thinking about I the defense. Partly because I’ve disappointed myself multiple times in the process, when I was confronted with the mismatch between the effort I wanted to put into the project, and the effort my body is capable of exerting (turns out it’s not a lot).
- Defend my BA thesis. Every time I think of this, my mind goes f***, f***, f***. My anxiety about this is so high,
- Graduate… at least I really want to. But as I explained here, it looks like it’s not going to happen. I just feel so done with uni at the moment, I can’t wait for it to be actually done.
- Try not to worry too much. (but like, how???) I hope I’ll look back on this time in a couple month, thinking “I wish I could tell June-Anne that it’s all going to be okay”. But right now there’s a lot of things that might not turn out okay. I don’t know when/if I’ll graduate. I need to find a new place to live. I need to find a job, but at the same time I’m not sure I’m well enough to work nor sick enough to not work. I have to fight to get any kind of treatment in the healthcare system.
- (I really need to turn around the tone of this post, and think of some positive things I can add to my June to make it a little better). Like watch Deadpool 2 with S. Well, technically, when this is published, I already have. But I loved it, so…
- Enjoy the sunshine. While writing my BA, I’ve spend a lot of hours inside, staring at the computer, only to once in a while steal a glimpse of the beautiful weather outside. My apartment and the tiny grass patch is covered in eternal darkness (I basically live in a cave thanks to the tall, thick bushes outside my window), but I do live close to a little park I can go to for picnics and sunbathing.
- Go to my first ever wedding. My cousin is getting married, and it’ll be the first time I go to a wedding 👰🤵
- Revive this blog. In May, all my energy went into the BA. I wish I could have updated the site more frequently, but I was just too drained to do so. June will have stressful periods as well, but hopefully I’ll find a moment here and there to write.
- Finish reading Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell. Summer is the time I read the most – mostly when school’s out, but I could use a hobby that doesn’t involve social media use for the sake of my mental health. Reading seems like a great choice for that! Especially fiction, though my to-read list is currently filled with non-fiction, I want to read more just for pure enjoyment. Do you have any recommendations for summer-reading?
What do you look forward to doing in June?