I still have a long way to go.
So… I want to encourage you to respect and take care of your body regardless of how it look, not waiting until your reach a specific size.
And learn that it applies to me as well.
But it seems like I still have a long way to go – especially when it comes to dealing with how other people perceive my body.
On a day I felt good *in* my body I took a bunch of photos. I didn’t look in the mirror (it’s in the bedroom anyway, and S was sleeping). I allowed myself not to constantly think about sucking in my stomach and “flattering poses” – I allowed my body to relax and just be.
Now, looking back at the pictures, insecurity has crept back in.
Rationally, I know my body has as much right to exist as the instagram models’… but at the same time we live in a time where culture idealises thin bodies. Like the majority of people, I have internalized that belief. I know I’m not very big (if you are, that’s okay too), but I still fall short compared to the ideal.
And that makes it scary to post pictures of my body. I end up going with the most “flattering” instead (meaning where my body looks smallest), chickening out. But I don’t want to let the shame win.
So here we go.
I don’t have all this #selflove #bodypositivity figured out, but I hope you’ll come along for the ride.
Do you want to learn with me?