In a world… within a world… a few select people fight hard to bring you OOTD’s, What I Ate Wednesdays and hilarious list posts, including 512 reasons why Anne Kvapakpsodsaposdap* is a superhero.
Maybe I’m exaggerating, but I’m trying to make an exciting movie trailer, dammit!
And by the way, I’m not a superhero.
Yet think about it. Have you ever seen me and Batman at the same time? Or Deadpool? (I’d rather be Deadpool!).
Okay, you’ve probably just not seen me, period. That’s because my online identity is a secret from people I know “in real life” (like Internet people aren’t real people).
Why is that?
Am I embarrassed by my blog?
Should I be after writing that terrible intro?
The internet has always been my hideout, my escape when I needed to forget about daily life, just for a moment. I started reading a few blogs a long time ago, and I love the connection I get with the blogger, even though it’s mostly a one-way relationship. I slowly discovered the blogging community across different social medias and became inspired. I wanted to make my own little space of the internet, I wanted to be part of the community of
socially awkward like-minded people, I wanted to share my passion for health, and I wanted to talk about my mental health struggles.
This is where the hard part starts – extremely few people know about that. I can’t talk about it without bawling my eyes out, but writing about it helps me find peace.
But it’s hard. I have a constant nagging feeling that someone will find out, and I fear that day, that it will take my safe space away.
Blogging gets a bad rep from some outsiders – it’s just about whining and getting freebies right? And I do used to make decisions based on what people think of me, and care way too much about other people’s opinion of me. I’m trying to let go of that, and I’m starting to think the solution is smacking it in their face
book, and just be proud of what I’ve created here – because I made it for me.
I’m going to share this
someday. Even if it requires a couple of deep breaths and a moment of temporary insanity. And maybe I should delete this post first… 😀
I’m curious to hear from you, fellow bloggers: Do you tell people about your blog? What’s their reaction when you do? Let me know in the comments!