I don’t know how to start this post, because – well I don’t even know how to say, so I’m just going to say it:
My depression is back at full strength.
I wish I didn’t have to write that, I wish it wasn’t true.
It didn’t have to be this way. I felt it was going the wrong way, and I reached out for help. Before everything had fallen apart, for the first time. And what happened? I get caught up in bureaucracy and long waiting lists.
I have no words for how bad this makes me feel.
That also means there’s no point in me setting goals, when right now I’m just trying to get through one day at a time, hoping I won’t have to wait too long to get help.
But I’m still writing and blogging because it’s the only thing that doesn’t make me feel completely overwhelmed or useless.
I know I’ll be able to work my way through this, I have before. It’s just very hard right now.
Things that’ll show up on the blog this week
so get excited!
- A post from the heart about doing what’s safe vs what you’re passionate about
- A workout I’m super excited to share with you
- My September blog traffic report
Things I posted a really long time ago
that we’ve all happily forgotten about
- How to be More Confident in the Gym
- Tomato soup full of memories
- Out of your comfortzone | Little Reminder #8
Things that are too cute for this world
Because cute animals are the key to happiness and this way I can pretend I’m being productive when I spend hours looking at puppies –“It’s for the blog!!!”
I mean look at…
… this dirty dog
… this weird tiger lollipop
… this spinning ball of fluff
What do you want to achieve this week? Let me know in the comments!