Yes, it’s my freaking birthday today. Let’s make a huge fuss about it and let me be the centre of attention.
Please don’t, I can’t actually think of anything worse. Maybe being stuck in a pool with sharks. But I’ve been told sharks are really misunderstood and not evil. They don’t even want to eat people (but they might not realise that until they’ve bitten off your arm)
So anyway, where am I going with this? I don’t know. Which is quite symbolic for my life at the moment. That got deep way too fast. But it does seem like birthdays are just the right time reflect about your life.
So that’s what I’m
trying to doing.
I’m not a big fan of birthdays. There’s so much pressure to celebrate and do something extraordinary. Now I’m making myself sound like the most boring person ever, which I might be. But parties make me so anxious I feel bad a long time before it starts, especially if it’s my party. And there’s nothing fun about anxiety. I am, however, looking forward to my boyfriend cooking for me tonight (he’s a great cook, but don’t tell him, he’ll get too cocky). I’ll even see my family over the weekend – and that’s all I could wish for! It might not be your ideal birthday, but this is not your birthday so give me back my crown and all the balloons!
I should probably put a disclaimer on my post when they’re written by a drunk me. (I’m not drunk, by the way, it just seems like a good excuse for rambling on and on without making sense).
If there’s one thing I’d want to get better at this year, it’s not caring what other people think. Not letting their perception of me shape my choices. From the way I celebrate my birthday to my career choices – I need to fulfil my own dream, instead of trying to please everybody all the time. And watch more puppy videos, of course!
Even though it’s probably not your birthday, I hope you have a great day! Oh, and here’s a puppy gif(this will be me today) ❤️